Cathedralism
Cathedralism

    

    

Breaking the Waves (1996), George Dibble

In the purple-fogged valley between the mountains, the peaks within cloud, their faces green, yellow, brown, a fire had raged here and its skeleton died in rainbow; Ethan takes down his tent, Matt is by the water filter, the flower meadow reaches for light not found. So close to God, Moses had climbed these rubbled steps to Sinai; Abraham and his son, the lamb, on the table of the Lord. Find me in Your mercy. I have never been so lost. I hike double-packed, I crawl against the shoal; searching; who is it that tells me I have wronged. Where is His face. The rain has soddened my clothes. I wipe what I can. I grab what I can. I go home the way I came. I return through memory; I leave the same.

RATING: 5/5          DATE: 8/27/25

       

          

Star Wars (1977), Kat Thanopoulos

I finally did it.

RATING: 4/5          DATE: 7/13/25

      

      

Dogtooth (2009), Kat Thanopoulos

The basement of my grandparents house had wood paneling from the 70s. I felt as though all the wood paneling in the world began in that basement and hopped from house to house like an infection. I liked the wood paneling though and I wish there was more. In that house with the wood paneled basement I would dip my suckers in water after each lick and make soup with flower petals and basil from the garden. Σας αγαπώ γιαγιά και παππού.

RATING: 4/5          DATE: 7/7/25

     

   

La La Land (2016), Malcolm Hatfield

I couldn’t get the string lights lit. On the back porch. It was in the summer when it got too hot, too dry for the mosquitos. We liked to sit back there on wicker lawn chairs and talk. I liked to look at her. Every time I saw her face it was like seeing her the first time. It was pissing me off how drunk we already were and how we would probably never get the string lights lit. I checked the plugs and the cord. A bulb probably went out. We sat in the dark and we had to talk loud over the sound of the air conditioning unit.

RATING: 5/5          DATE: 7/2/25

      

      

At Eternity's Gate (2018), Kat Thanopoulos

Not many things make me sad. But something that always pulls at me is the desire to be cared for. An image that comes to mind that drives this craving is a sponge bath in warm water. Or someone bringing me soup when I’m sick. I feel like my heart and soul is always calling out for a big warm hug and an “it’s going to be okay.”

I love going to any sort of doctor for this reason. Submitting myself over to their expertise. I can relax and let the blood be drained for testing. It’s easy for me to let go. I’m at the mercy of the universe.

RATING: 4/5          DATE: 5/28/25

        

       

Buffalo '66 (1998), Malcolm Hatfield

We were both on the swim team. She was older. When I moved away I sent her an Oasis song. She sent me a Facebook message the week later and said she liked it. She joined the Coast Guard after she graduated. She means nothing to me. If I live forever I will not forget her.

RATING: 5/5          DATE: 5/20/25

         

         

La Ciénaga (2001), George Dibble

Lying on the couch. Staring at the ceiling. Sister watching reels full-volumed. Dad arguing at Mom for the type of alarm-tone she'd set. "It's ridiculous. Stop it. Stop it are you serious" and "This is the standard one I don't know what you want from me I didn't change anything." The ceiling fan rickety, shaking, shaking as if the house was on the axis of some tectonic split and only the sounding-ceiling bore truth to the events outside. Hot. Humid. The unused pool in the back a dead leaf mat. I stand from the couch. Peel off my shirt. Walk outside. Mosquitoes already at my ankles. I dip a foot into the bobbing leaves. Clear a hole. Dive.

The cold water angrily comforts. As if a dog, apologetically, places its mouth on where it'd bit you.

RATING: 4.5/5          DATE: 5/19/25

         

         

Body Double (1984), Ethan Taylor

I had the best time at the park today. The shade was perfect, the grass was oh so green, and the food was delectable. I’m still thinking about that goddamn sandwich. And oh, the watermelon! Don’t even get me started on the watermelon! I had some spicy ghost pepper chips (you know—the ones from Trader Joe’s) as well. I kept putting those bad boys on my sandwich. I don’t remember where I first learned to do that. Probably the cafeteria in elementary school. I feel like Cheetos were involved. But alas, I just can’t know these things. I polished it all off with a pumpkin bar covered in cream cheese frosting. Everything is meaningless.

RATING: 4.5/5          DATE: 5/9/25

         

         

The Gospel According to St. Matthew (1964), George Dibble

Six deer in a backyard. Moving. Then. Stopped. They stare at me as if a hunter. I want to quickly move to startle them. But I stop as well. Their

cabbage-leafed ears and tomato-wire antlers. One walks to another. Places its head behind its tail. Three group near a planter box. Bowing heads. White tailed, they muse softly together in cautious steps. Who would

harm you, disturb your peace? I slowly walk away, having thought to.

RATING: 4/5          DATE: 2/15/25

    

    

Gummo (1997), Charles Quaid

Physically ill. Generally anxious about existing.

RATING: 4.5/5          DATE: 2/9/25

    

    

Edge of Tomorrow (2014), Ethan Taylor

My most emotional moments happen while running.

RATING: 3.5/5          DATE: 12/31/24

      

      

Babygirl (2024), Ethan Taylor

I’ve been drunk since 4 pm.

RATING: 4/5          DATE: 12/27/24

      

      

Queer (2024), Ethan Taylor

My dad used to buzz my head for the first 10 years of my life. A nice close shave right against my skull. My skull had great shape. I don’t know why I only ever had buzzes for so long, but I know when I started to grow my hair out I also started to become moodier. My mom used to tease me and say I was nicer when I had short hair and that every time I cut my hair I had a weight lifted off of me. My “countenance“ became lighter without the long strands of hair weighing me down. 

I remember when I first started getting my hair cut by a stylist instead of by my dad in the kitchen. The soft touches of middle aged women against my head and neck had quite the effect on me. To this day the back of my neck is still the most sensitive part of my skin. I don’t know if I discovered that fact by getting my hair cut, or if getting my hair cut caused my neck to become sensitive. I won’t ever know. Chicken or the egg question I suppose.

RATING: 4.5/5          DATE: 12/15/24

      

      

Demolition (2015), Charles Quaid

Today I lounged around my house completely nude for almost 3 hours, home alone waiting for my clothes to go through the wash. I drank, I painted and talked on the phone. It was a great time. I’ve been feeling weird lately. Like I don’t exist. Not sure what to do about it. It’s 1 am now. My clothes are washed but I’m walking around my house naked again. I don't know why. It feels like the right thing to do.

RATING: 3.5/5          DATE: 9/1/24

    

    

Batman: The Dark Knight Returns, Part 2 (2013), Charles Quaid

The first time I ever drank I was like 16 or 17. I had an idea on how to get alcohol without getting in trouble or asking someone. I remembered as a kid I used to smell the vanilla bottle. One time I noticed that the ingredients were alcohol and vanilla beans. So one day I went to the store and found the biggest bottle of vanilla I could. I grabbed a couple other baking items to avoid suspicion and went home. I'd never drank before so I didn’t know how much to take. It was 35% alcohol content. I didn’t know what that meant. I drank about half the bottle in one go. It was disgusting. I got so very fucked up. I watched Spider-Man: Into the Spider-Verse and zonked. I didn’t get caught or do anything stupid. It was a crazy time. I never did it again. Not until I had a reason to.

RATING: 4/5          DATE: 7/7/24

    

    

    

Breaking the Waves (1996), George Dibble

In the purple-fogged valley between the mountains, the peaks within cloud, their faces green, yellow, brown, a fire had raged here and its skeleton died in rainbow; Ethan takes down his tent, Matt is by the water filter, the flower meadow reaches for light not found. So close to God, Moses had climbed these rubbled steps to Sinai; Abraham and his son, the lamb, on the table of the Lord. Find me in Your mercy. I have never been so lost. I hike double-packed, I crawl against the shoal; searching; who is it that tells me I have wronged. Where is His face. The rain has soddened my clothes. I wipe what I can. I grab what I can. I go home the way I came. I return through memory; I leave the same.

RATING: 5/5          DATE: 8/27/25

     

     

Star Wars (1977), Kat Thanopoulos

I finally did it.

RATING: 4/5          DATE: 7/13/25

    

     

Dogtooth (2009), Kat Thanopoulos

The basement of my grandparents house had wood paneling from the 70s. I felt as though all the wood paneling in the world began in that basement and hopped from house to house like an infection. I liked the wood paneling though and I wish there was more. In that house with the wood paneled basement I would dip my suckers in water after each lick and make soup with flower petals and basil from the garden. Σας αγαπώ γιαγιά και παππού.

RATING: 4/5          DATE: 7/7/25

     

       

La La Land (2016), Malcolm Hatfield

I couldn’t get the string lights lit. On the back porch. It was in the summer when it got too hot, too dry for the mosquitos. We liked to sit back there on wicker lawn chairs and talk. I liked to look at her. Every time I saw her face it was like seeing her the first time. It was pissing me off how drunk we already were and how we would probably never get the string lights lit. I checked the plugs and the cord. A bulb probably went out. We sat in the dark and we had to talk loud over the sound of the air conditioning unit.

RATING: 5/5          DATE: 7/2/25

      

      

Buffalo '66 (1998), Malcolm Hatfield

We were both on the swim team. She was older. When I moved away I sent her an Oasis song. She sent me a Facebook message the week later and said she liked it. She joined the Coast Guard after she graduated. She means nothing to me. If I live forever I will not forget her.

RATING: 5/5          DATE: 5/20/25

         

         

La Ciénaga (2001), George Dibble

Lying on the couch. Staring at the ceiling. Sister watching reels full-volumed. Dad arguing at Mom for the type of alarm-tone she'd set. "It's ridiculous. Stop it. Stop it are you serious" and "This is the standard one I don't know what you want from me I didn't change anything." The ceiling fan rickety, shaking, shaking as if the house was on the axis of some tectonic split and only the sounding-ceiling bore truth to the events outside. Hot. Humid. The unused pool in the back a dead leaf mat. I stand from the couch. Peel off my shirt. Walk outside. Mosquitoes already at my ankles. I dip a foot into the bobbing leaves. Clear a hole. Dive.

The cold water angrily comforts. As if a dog, apologetically, places its mouth on where it'd bit you.

RATING: 4.5/5          DATE: 5/19/25

         

         

Body Double (1984), Ethan Taylor

I had the best time at the park today. The shade was perfect, the grass was oh so green, and the food was delectable. I’m still thinking about that goddamn sandwich. And oh, the watermelon! Don’t even get me started on the watermelon! I had some spicy ghost pepper chips (you know—the ones from Trader Joe’s) as well. I kept putting those bad boys on my sandwich. I don’t remember where I first learned to do that. Probably the cafeteria in elementary school. I feel like Cheetos were involved. But alas, I just can’t know these things. I polished it all off with a pumpkin bar covered in cream cheese frosting. Everything is meaningless.

RATING: 4.5/5          DATE: 5/9/25

         

         

The Gospel According to St. Matthew (1964), George Dibble

Six deer in a backyard. Moving. Then. Stopped. They stare at me as if a hunter. I want to quickly move to startle them. But I stop as well. Their

cabbage-leafed ears and tomato-wire antlers. One walks to another. Places its head behind its tail. Three group near a planter box. Bowing heads. White tailed, they muse softly together in cautious steps. Who would

harm you, disturb your peace? I slowly walk away, having thought to.

RATING: 4/5          DATE: 2/15/25

    

    

Gummo (1997), Charles Quaid

Physically ill. Generally anxious about existing.

RATING: 4.5/5          DATE: 2/9/25

    

    

Edge of Tomorrow (2014), Ethan Taylor

My most emotional moments happen while running.

RATING: 3.5/5          DATE: 12/31/24

      

      

Babygirl (2024), Ethan Taylor

I’ve been drunk since 4 pm.

RATING: 4/5          DATE: 12/27/24

      

      

Queer (2024), Ethan Taylor

My dad used to buzz my head for the first 10 years of my life. A nice close shave right against my skull. My skull had great shape. I don’t know why I only ever had buzzes for so long, but I know when I started to grow my hair out I also started to become moodier. My mom used to tease me and say I was nicer when I had short hair and that every time I cut my hair I had a weight lifted off of me. My “countenance“ became lighter without the long strands of hair weighing me down. 

I remember when I first started getting my hair cut by a stylist instead of by my dad in the kitchen. The soft touches of middle aged women against my head and neck had quite the effect on me. To this day the back of my neck is still the most sensitive part of my skin. I don’t know if I discovered that fact by getting my hair cut, or if getting my hair cut caused my neck to become sensitive. I won’t ever know. Chicken or the egg question I suppose.

RATING: 4.5/5          DATE: 12/15/24

      

      

Demolition (2015), Charles Quaid

Today I lounged around my house completely nude for almost 3 hours, home alone waiting for my clothes to go through the wash. I drank, I painted and talked on the phone. It was a great time. I’ve been feeling weird lately. Like I don’t exist. Not sure what to do about it. It’s 1 am now. My clothes are washed but I’m walking around my house naked again. I don't know why. It feels like the right thing to do.

RATING: 3.5/5          DATE: 9/1/24

    

    

Batman: The Dark Knight Returns, Part 2 (2013), Charles Quaid

The first time I ever drank I was like 16 or 17. I had an idea on how to get alcohol without getting in trouble or asking someone. I remembered as a kid I used to smell the vanilla bottle. One time I noticed that the ingredients were alcohol and vanilla beans. So one day I went to the store and found the biggest bottle of vanilla I could. I grabbed a couple other baking items to avoid suspicion and went home. I'd never drank before so I didn’t know how much to take. It was 35% alcohol content. I didn’t know what that meant. I drank about half the bottle in one go. It was disgusting. I got so very fucked up. I watched Spider-Man: Into the Spider-Verse and zonked. I didn’t get caught or do anything stupid. It was a crazy time. I never did it again. Not until I had a reason to.

RATING: 4/5          DATE: 7/7/24